hellogoodbye

29 July 2007

I am finally finally finally starting to complete most of my tutorials. Lazy bum~ I'm going to spend my sunday afternoons in the library completing my hw and not leave my umbrella there. I watched "Alone" with the volleyballers on saturday. Damn the show!! Freaking eyelinered reflections. A total waste of make up please! The show was alright, "Shutter" is obviously so much better. I'm so gonna make denise watch "Shutter"!!! We finally ordered our training tees! Red =D

I'm looking forward to wednesday! Even though wednesday= SPA exam, it is also = training and the simpsons! provided they don't cancel it at the last minute... Only happening thing happening... Monday's gonna be long because there's economics crap after school and tuesday looks stupid because I end off my day with gp. But I get to see my eyecandies one after another on tuesday! And eating vegetarian during recess for some particular reason.

He's a scumbag don't you know? Ahh... Gotta let this period pass quickly. Or be like joanna, keep myself busy busy. I shall stop polluting my mind with what others are talking about. Go with what I think. Bulls***! I wouldn't mind if... Cause it did be fun. I wouldn't mind if... Cause I have never tried. I wouldn't mind if... But if....

All hail Cassandra Maharani Ji!

Labels: good friends, studies, training

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22 July 2007

Class photo taking. Mrs Chan's pink lipstick. CIP. Friendly malays. Studying at Mac's with vballers. Vball tee. Trainings. Tutorials. Upcoming Tests. Soccer. Guitars and their names. Tioman Trip. SPA. EOM. Written Report. Friends like my vball mates. Funny hair(HAHAHAHA. FUNNY PLEASE AND U-G-L-Y). Breakouts. Sorethroat. Vegetarian. Harry Potter. Some thoughts and no tears. Shrek ears. Stares. Love Songs. 200 Pound Beauty. Scriptures. Bimbo antics. Hymms. Confessions. Never back to you. National Day. Volleyball. Volleyball. KL trip. Truth. With wings we soar up high.

Labels: random

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17 July 2007

This is pathetic. I have only typed the first sentence for my EOM which needs to be handed in by this thursday as draft number 1. And I thought yesterday night was productive because I finally sat down and did my tutorials dilligently. If my father replies my email and gives me the green light. I'm going to the same tuition centre as rachel somewhere in Boon Lay there. I hope it is someplace I know about in BL. yikes*

I'm glad that I'm "cheeky crappy cheerful cass" again. Not enough lah. I want to have the word hard working also. I must stop lying to myself and just be sad when I need to. Well, its fun you know being single and all. But damn, I'm really not getting use to this like a lil'. Weird. But then again, i'm having fun. Like today I was almost almost late for school. Having fun laughing etc with volleyball mates.

The School is selling low fat ice cream now, if I didn't get my facts wrong. Woah! Ben & jerry's still better. Hagen diaz too and yammi yoghurt. There is no night study program tomorrow after training! YES!! I need to pia EOM tomorrow.

4B's class bbq is cancelled. I hope nathan can confirm friday night plans with lene and ws. HAHA. Its a pity that we are not 18 yet =( And most probably saturday is sushi buffet with scrabble mates. I'm so not eating lunch after training on saturday. Yay for my dear shuqunites!

Paint me like I am. Paint me like I'll never go black and white. Paint me like an eagle, soaring above the skies. Paint me like I'll never ever shed some tears. Paint me like I was oh so long ago.

Labels. The truth and the rumours. Labels. The ugly and the beautiful. Labels. What's real and what's not. Labels. The tittles and words. Labels. The love and the hatred. Labels. The needs and the wants. oh my tian, I feel emotionless for a while.

Labels: good friends, life, studies

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15 July 2007

I have become too much of a bible reader.

Is this a good sign?

Am I really going to stop spurting out the Fs?!

Period.

Dailycare and songbooks. Why didn't I start earlier?

No one's to blame. No one's to blame. No one's to blame.

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Past Vs. Present. The past won~ I bet there are more seniors than those who came back yesterday. The sun was such a spoiler. We got to watch david and joash perform. But they didn't win anything. So that was arts day and college day. They just had to clash this two events, crazy school.

I have to stop procrastinating and start start start studying for promos. Even with less teevee, I'm not doing anything productive except maybe sleeping. Oh, kkb is the girl's captain! Yay! Finally we got our "exco", no need to worry who is who now =D

I am so not blaming anyone. Things just happens. Like how JT's song goes "what goes around, comes around". Well, it came around back to me again. No hard feelings whatsoever. And now I lost my bestfriend. Great*

My dad's in Nigeria. My mum thought my dad wanted to go on a year end holiday when he asked if I was free at the end of the year. But aiyah, he wants me to go to Chengmai.

Labels: church, school, volleyball

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12 July 2007

"Defining Faith"

The daily care sharings this few days has been very encouraging. Praise the Lord! And yes, Praise the Lord one more time because ANDREW GOT INTO IP PROGRAM IN NJC! Woots* No more SJI >.< NJ!!!

THERE IS P.T tomorrow. I'm starting to dread going for P.T even though there is running whihc is my favourite. But its oh-so-boring please. I hate the jumping thing at the ramp. Damn irritating. At least there was the mattress to jump on in sqs. Well... I get to have trainings with my lovely friends anyways. So yea, that keeps me going on now.

I'm fine people and getting along quite well =D No worries. Quite numb already (ok this is bad ahhahahah)

So if I'm not thinking means I'm a retard?! Wahahhahaha. So I'm a retard whenever I run!

Suei Chuan just contacted me. He's timing is like so perfect? Finally he said something about - - - - He has got to get better. He has to get better. He has to get better. There's the class bbq next friday! Sofia and I will not be "singled" out cause lene and nathan and etc are gonna be there too! Ahahahha.

Okay, No more ~~ivan~~. That's a good thing I ~~guess~~. No more regrets!!! But for my dear volleyball mates. Less one emo mate!!!

Labels: church, Cousins, memories

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8 July 2007

i just wanna cuddle up in someone's arms and cry.
too emo i know.
I can't believe how vulnerable i have become.
and I have decided on getting two new ear piercings. Gonna get orange studs. I thought of tongue. But I remembered how ak had to struggle with her ABCs, no way am I getting my tongue pierced.

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"For where your heart is, there your heart will be also.

matthew 6:21"

oh god byebye cyber friendly world...

hello geek world...

The crybaby is so back.

Bestfriend(ym): I think I know why I'm like sad.I'm like so deprive of company of ivan's. Go bash him up he is ill-treating me again!(just kidding aye)

OH wells. Emo days are here cause da yi ma's here today and will not go until next week =(

I have thought it over.

This time I won't cut my hair short.

July's horrible enough already.

I'm losing weight again. Back to 44kg. I can fly on the track every friday during P.T with the boys now.

Candy can't make me happy. Maybe cookies. hahah.

Labels: depression, love, training

Y CASSANDRA

7 July 2007

its definite.

i'm giving no shit to it anymore.

Y CASSANDRA

Wear green Wear green Wear greeeeeen today!

I'm exhausted and I bet everyone else in volleyball are. Especially those who had to run their rounds during p.e and I didn't (only 2 for p.e). So, have a good rest =D While training and trying to make my whole body not turn so much and my hand...... I remembered Mr Ong!!! I wouldn't be running this much faster than before it if weren't for him. Who was determined to change the way my feet points to when I run. So now I run with my two feet pointing straight and not out. So random. Now I have to change the way I lept into the air and just not change where I face and position myself.

Results sucks. I can't be lazy anymore aye. I so better stop watching disney channel, bye bye kim possible. And dear mates, I doubt I'll be like joining you for loads of dinners on wednesdays or saturdays. Hello night study sessions in pjc. Oh man, I'm so gonna get home soooo late.

Ngee Ann's library is like so friggin big and cool, cold whatever. IT WAS VERY NICE TO SEE YOU ALL AGAIN!

So switch to a new target. Go for something new. Feel the agape love. Concentrate on just one thing at a time. Don't ever feel sorry. Compassion? Ay? Forget all about the insecurities, just happy-go-lucky. FTW. Just let love in. Open your mind. Let the hormones rage. Open your eyes wide. Forget everything you hated. Don't ever make the same mistakes again. Just let love in. Don't ever cry. Weakling. FTW. Don't ever feel sorry.. You were once able to be a bad bad girl. Gone were the days~ Choice.

Training sessions has been fairly interesting and amusing. Wednesday was shawn and sim. Friday was still sim and I don't know what else. Today was wai chong and vipul and maybe still shawn and sim. Can't wait for next wednesday!!!!

Labels: good friends, relationship, studies, trainings

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2 July 2007

YAY! I so can't can't wait for this thursday! I hope nothing dampens my mood until thursday.

I find myself saying something I used to say a year ago - - - "da qiu da qiu. You shi da qiu....." Period.

I GOT NEW VBALL SHOES. Disgusting design but hey, new shoes more friction =D But its heavier than my old one. Now I have shoes for outdoor and indoor trainings =D

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1 July 2007

I did urshering at the grandstand yesterday at National Stadium =D Good view and stood beside that big and tall guy, James Wong. OMG! He's like so so huge. Dinner was HORRIBLE but they made it up with the quite good view and a cup of beer. lol. Crazy guy wearing the team singapore shirt who was supporting the Aussies and giving the two guys behind us beer. I think 6-8 cups or something like that.

Chia Lynn's back for a while =D Solomon didn't win anything from dragonboating competition. And I had a nice time with Ivan today. Worth the blisters and ~~fucking~~ complaints from myself. But aiyah, mishaps like this happens. So next time, put your er hem in my bag okay. This is a lil' deja vu. Cause ohmygod, best friend lost his er hem with me too. it never came back. I will not say hurtful or stupid stuff until you feel a lot more better. =D THANK YOU FOR TODAY!!! I will not post the video. I will not post the video. I will not post the video.

Its youthday tml! I can watch Kim possible in the morning and then go for a morning run and then maybe drop by ivan's to cheer him up(provided you're at home and I can find your address which I wrote it down on a piece of paper that I think I threw it away already. shit). I must rely on my fantastic memory now.

phhhooootos

Labels: dates, love, memories, YTSA

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