Great.So the more i think about it, the more i contradict myself. God help me. I'm so gonna blame myself for being so curious and let trouble in. At least it isn't affecting my studies. But its affecting me psychologically!
I know i shouldn't be blogging. But i'm just too lazy to write in my diary. I'm too lazy to move my pen. I'm stressed. Well, who isn't during this period of time?! What more, i haven't been stuyding but doing my homework =) Yet doing well for my tests. Maybe because i have been sleeping well? Tuition just now was a bore. duh~add math. And we were doing RI's paper. TOUGH. At least i did solved one or two. A big leap from a freaking add math student with no idea whatsoever on how to solve those questions. Wee~ Improvement?
I think i'm going to play badminton on sunday =) Destress? probably. I think i'm not looking forward to the 7th. Yes,i think its bad luck. No, i'm just being a bit paranoid that's all. Its not the exams. Its what that may be going to happen. No,Cass...Think positive. yes...i may miss him if i say yes.lols.
my boyfriend's gay.Did you know that? =X i'm just crapping around. lalala~

YOU ALL HAVE TO SEE THIS! ESP.FOR ALL THOSE WHO LOVE PLAYING GUITAR! ITS ALL REAL!

Yes,i finally got my brains back. Muahahhas. Study Study Study. I'm hardly online and blogging, like in ages did this happened. I think i'm thinking too much as well~ I absent mindedly scalded my hand with hot maggie soup. Grr~ It hurts so badly,on my palm somemore. And the funny thing is i carried on letting the soup flow onto my hand until i threw the bowl somewhere. I should have dropped it, but it was porcelein. Mama would find out that one bowl's missing =O
This one week has been WEIRD. Make-up lessons and remedials, me actually diligently completing my hw (exceot chinese) and doing a chapter of notes in 1 1/2 hour flat. Hmmms.A record for me it is. And once again "JIA YOU FOR ALL OF YOUR EXAMS!!"
So sad~There's no more one tree hill on channel 5,i can't stay up late to watch tv on thursday. or rather i hardly have the tv anymore. Everyone's not letting me have the previllage to watch! hmpmh.I miss camp.hahas. Coincidentally Benson was in armstrong. Well, the armstrong watch after mine! gagagaga~ too bad,we didn't have the same dates.
Happy birthday Yu min's mama =)

OBS was fantastic or rather beyond words for me. Because i had a fantastic Watch(on the outside), learnt many stuff pertaining to the outdoors and other life learning points...
There was:
jimmy.firdaus.Ak.yingen.melissa.nathaniel.Clara.Min ru.ying ying.jing man.Sharil.Zha~(dunno how to spell).left.elgen.ali.Me.
Fun bunch. Really appreciate the gentlements who helped ak,clara and i alot. ^Fir.jimmy.elgen.nat.yingen.^
And yes,i will go for OBS again. I miss camp.The shovel.mosquitos and hiking. Got my tees and other souvenirs. whee! A graduate from OBS. How wonderful =)Accomplish stuff like; hiking with 10kg baggy and carrying stuff by hand as well.kayak/capsizing(though its nth much).raft building.Rope tying?.Pitching.Setting up tents.using "outdoor" toilets.Not bathing.cooking outdoors.DDD.And more i think. Geez.So much. See...Ppl..Must go..

down.fustrated.mixed-up.Moodswings etc are back. I don't know why. The big factor: STRESS has hit me again but this time with a big bang. Maybe i was too stong that i became too insensitive of my ownself? HAHA. Next year did be worse. More responsibilities and tasks as i get older. Church did have to come first. To make my dad happy,although i know i'm thinking the wrong way already.
All these gets smaller once i compare to those who are REALLY SUFFERING for like years already? Those cancer paitients who are still hanging on, proverty-striken asian kids, abused children-wives-maids and family problems. They are the real strong survivors. They stand the pain and suffering within thier own world.
I miss being to share my thoughts etc with someone i really trust. But knowing what the world has become of, i doubt there's anyone i can really trust except a few. Its tough,but my diary and handy-dandy pen are temporary only.
Obs is tml... The burning flame of excitement has cooled off. HAHA again... i don't wish to attend it anymore. Dreams haunts me. Actually i have a fear of dreams. Most of them has happened. I dreamt i did faint somewhere. Everyone i knew well enough seem to have been surrounding me, but the person i wanted to really be there wasn't. In fact he was the last. But yea,i'm praying and crossing my fingers that this will not happen there. I want to finish and graduate from OBS. i want to.
cries.depression.stress.how much i need to talk to you two again. But i'm stuck with nothing.

I'm Utterly disappointed. One Tree Hill Season is like over,like just only. Gawd...I can only catch it on channel 18 now. But Once a week =/ lols,i wanna rent the whole season. Lene's sister has got but...oh wells,its a WANT. not a need. So there's less of james lafferty and an appropiate storyline for me to enjoy. =O Depression? nah-dar.
Went for training ytd,i think i got sunburn already. So fassy... Wonder how burn i will be at OBS. Damn burn up. hahas. Tml's the day. Truth will unveil itself tml. I'm such a pussy... cause i'm scared.

Ciao...gonna rest...tml will be a long long long Day. toodles and Ciao again =) hmms...2 to bt's bdae. geex..i can rmb his date so clearly..hahas.

I'm getting more tired everyday, even though i have enough rest. Its not heriditary,neither is it because of my sinus. Being a bio student scares me.. heehee.Enough of mind-broading stuff. Went to Ngee Ann today. Damn...The glider course thing was insanely BORING. But i did learn some things. HAHAs. Cut my finger while cutting basal wood. Nevermind...Nothing important. Psst.I didn't go for training. Duh...I did be very very late for training so nvm lahs.. Miss one also he don't care..i don't care also.
Thanks Lord for helping me. You saw me in a desperate state, hence you answered my prayers. I'm motivated~! I can study! But yeaps,i miss my motivator still. That distinct hair. Wahahhas~

Its like 2 smth on a monday morning.urh huh. obviously i'm back to my old self again. Sleeping when everyone's awake and studying when everyone's alseep. But honestly, books don't seem to interest me at this hour. It pisses me whenever this happens. But i'm bright awake, that's for sure. I'm also at a crossroad of which subject to revise/study on. Definitely not math(s)... or physics. Because both need calculations.
There's bio practical test later. How so unprepared i am. lalala~ Even if i read...Nothing will get into my big head. I feel so air headed now. It can't be the sleep. It must be me.
I need to save up quick. Initial d's dvd/vcd is OUT!!! Woohoo~! Meaning i can get to buy it(when i save up for it) and watch it at home at my own comfort and space! Maybe invite my neighbour along and drool over them. And with the money i'll be saving i can go on retail-shopping-theraphy, and hit the beach for some tanning. See so well plan,but eventually this plan will have minor changes here and there because of my appetite. Whahahas~
I just want to shout it out to you that "I LOVE YOU!"

Wee~ School is officially close today! Meaning,more tips to the school for training et cetra. And also OBS is appraoching. Most importantly,EOYs will be coming real quick..Damn...Anyways,happy holidays. Although this is a short one. Happy Mugging too~
Today was sucky.The Fieldtrip was a-ok..But extremly BORING. hmmm.I got a cactus plant for free. Traded the Roselle plant with the uncle, since i somewhat won it. Got back my results. L1R5 improve by 5. I just gotta step up for my maths and combined science. On the whole,i'm pretty alright with my results. Scored for both my two favourite subjects so i'm contented with it. Had quiet time/devotion or whatever with teresa and sofia at tree's place. Couldn't go training cuase i didn't think going for an hour was worth it.
I watch "jue dui Superstar" ytd~! Yippie,my first watchin that show. I felt that i missed out alot. The show could have helped me alot with the pronouciation and recognition of words, by listening and singing along with the lyrics. too late for that already.
i need you to motivate me.I need you here by my side. You'll never come across this. But i just wanna write it down. This is how much i miss you and appreciate you. Just a glimpse will do for me.

Its...1st september.Happy Teacher's Day. And it also shows that EOYs are coming real real soon. Meaning,there'll be less trainings and also more mugging to do. Apparently,the computer is still an important factor in my life.hehes. I need it so badly. After planning my study thingy,i think i'll most probably not follow it at all. OBS is approaching soon. I'm going to miss my bed and books and com and the clean clean toilet. I have more relapses of sudden pains around my heart or rather chest area. It hurts but grrr~I'm strong and determined to not whine on my bed to my mom. Cause that would mean no OBS. Stubborn.