I'm down again. This time I can't seem to be confident at all. =/ Family has been kinda ignoring the fact that i'm here. Mom forgot about telling me how much or whether she's gonna give me shopping money or not. I thought my mom had good memory? Feeling a bit neglected already. and and and my boyfriend need not come in to save me from being depress. He'll just make it worst for me. Maybe, to brighten my day/night, its just pms and you don't feel like waking up. But since those freaking jimmy dreams, i rather be bright awake (but like that's gonna happen cass).
Can't wait till dad and mom goes for church camp, and the whole house will be all to me! To meEEEEE!!!! for the whole entire day!!! WOOHHOOOO!!! I think jolly shandy just makes me feel sleepy and more depress, so spritey... I hate it, It doesn't make me high nor makes me all red =(
FACT:SOF.AK.TREE.ME.KW.RAY. wore that pathetic yellow sec 3 camp 2006 tee. I'm never ever gonna support tree in wearing the same tee to school. Weird things like this happen and of all the idiotic boys KW.
Wrote down what i'm feeling now, off to do add math hw. Yea. Hw. Stupid.

KW has been appearing in my dreams for two consecutive nights already. How ironic is that. The first was kind of a nightmare, the second was close to my heart. Whatever it is I have been having nightemares for three consecutive days. DAmn. I must stop dreaming or I'll just start scaring myself that sleeping is bad for me. I'm not even dreaming of ym. How can that be.

O' Level Chinese is tomorrow. All the best of luck to everyone and ME! Ciao~

I was just thinking... Why should I bother making my relationship so important when I already know there will not be a yu min and cass after shuqun. It will only be like "It was fun while it lasted" that kind of thing. He himself already said something like that a couple of times. Maybe I'm just contradicting myself like usual but but I'm just thinking of what will happen in the future. Or like my mother likes to say "Its only puppy love lah. Won't last long". Maybe. Or just tell him like what Prema said something like are you planning on marrying or something if not forget it. HAHA.
I'm trying out for DSA(direct school admission) this june. Wish me all the best! PJC!PJC!PJC! and there's gonna be volleyball during the june holidays. Playing for fun, alumni cup >.< Its been long since I touched the wonderful Mikasa balls. Parents planning on moving house! And I want them to shift to the East, where good food is all around you =) That's also why I have been thinking of ym and me next year. and if i'm moving I'm definitely aiming for AJC. BYE!!

I think I gotta thank Mr.Ong for my tuition teacher. Not that he helped me fail my add math, but he got me very interested in God's word again. But I think he's going a lil' way overboard about christ stuff. I mean there is no wrong of inviting me and my friends to some concert put up by the members of his church, but I'm of another congregation. Or rather that's what my dad is trying to imply. haha, that means less swearing from me and happier and brighter days to come. What a "positive" attitude from me.

I passed today's chinese mock exam paper 2! hehe. With a bit of sofia's help of explaning some questions to me. But still, I finally passed! Victoria came back. After what seem like forever. Still the same I suppose.

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I can't even listen to my favourite songs for more than half an hour and just switch the damn player off.
That's what happening. Or I can't concentrate in class without even looking at your brushy hair and think what a sucker you are. With the EVER BORING HORRIBLE INTENSIVE CHINESE REVISION CLASS your presence makes it WORST.
My wish now is to really give you a punch a maybe a hard kick in your balls. To vent my anger on you! HAH.
hmm...Even I ain't so interested in boyfriend. Because he wears a tie too and lives on the same floor and block as you.
I wonder when can I ever ever fully concentrate. and GREAT, the O's for chinese are nearing too.
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I must really stop cursing and swearing.
The beehive on the tree branch outside 4C has been destroyed, small innocent bees died for no reason. May they rest in pees. But I think I did step on them this morning =/

Once an asshole forever an asshole.
I SO HATE ASSHOLES LIKE XX!
and anyways,
PROMISES WERE MEANT TO BE BROKEN!

Like how i wish you can actually read this.

Just when I thought things were alright, some other big part of my life just went hay-wire. I'm just hoping some angelic person will come by and help. Exams are insanely horrible! GWAD! Went to meet up with SAM with people. And I HAD FUN ACTING LIKE A CHILD HAVING FUN @ TOYS R' US! Who cares if I was in my school uniform. I'm stressed up and disturb by some issues which weren't meant to be problematic at all and I wanna just enjoy this time with my friends. too bad tree wasn't there or I did have some more fun acting weird in front of the aunties there. BWAHA! Tomorrow's the last day for mid years! So glad its over. But then again, it will be the start of our intensive chinese remedial. Then it will be the O levels. Dammy...

WHY do I have this feeling my ex hates me like A LOT?
WHY is he still keeping his mouth close even after I told him not to.
WHY? why? wHY? WhY?
ARSEHOLE!

Mid years so far has been pretty much horrible. The teachers are trying to murder us with those passages. There's no need to emphasize but chinese was the worst. Maybe because I for once understood the passages but have no idea what they were asking me. So yea, that's a confirm F. Oh yea... I LOVE THE COMFY CHAIRS AT THE FOURTH LEVEL =) A real joy to sit there and pig out. Well, who doesn't? hehes. I got my mini voodoo doll keychain thingy at Minitoons too! HE bought it. So why bother more. There's going to be a chalet thing on the 11 for ytsa... Gotta get Ah fat to accompany me there so I won't get bored. And maybe think about what excuses to get me to MOS on the 30th and accompany my dear friend Sam. HAH! toodles

P.S:
Like this green one? Just comment if you don't like it. I got back up.