Labels: hurt, injury, relationship, trainings

Labels: insecurities, relationship, studies

I AM OFFICIALLY A YTSA GRADUATE!!! 10 JUNE 10 JUNE! I'm going to get that tee. I hope they have chocolate fondue again. I AM OFFICIALLY A YTSA GRADUATE!!! YES!!!!

Dad got lost in malaysia yesterday. Damn. that was 1 hour plus of shopping gone.

I got my havannians =D Thanks yu min.

Why, thank you. I learnt how to humble myself and to know how to feel. I became emo due to that too =/ I had never wanted to say "zero". But then I remembered the last time something like this happened, Sacrifice. Its unfair, both ways. I have hurt you, left you, hurt you and left you. I so don't want a third time. I have hurt you, left you, hurt you and left you. Damn true I am the stronger one. Used to alright. Now I just feign ignorance. Don't pity me. I chose to do so. I chose to ignore everything and then tell it all to someone I think I can trust. Don't worry about me. I can manage. Don't feel lonely. Because GOD made man to have relationships. I'll stand by you. I'll attend whatever function you want me to be at. I'll listen to whatever troubles you have. I'll go out with you if you need someone to just be there for you. I'll be there. Its only year 2007. 2011 ain't far away. Let it go. Put everything behind and look forward to something else better. Just move on, like what I have been trying to do. You let me slipped away just like that. So don't let something else slip away. 2011. A promise made. This time I won't back out.

Labels: shopping, YTSA, yu min

Oppsy!

Damn...Sorry Ivan. It ain't because I'm not having fun with you.
Go pioneerugby*

Gee...Its a whole different fun that you can never share.

PJC won SRJC as expected during yesterday's match @ ccab. Ak came along with me(IT WAS NICE MEETING YOU!!) and we saw nice looking acjc ruggers. HAHAHHAH. And SAJC won ACJC. Stupid bias referee~ Brought ivan to the fireball at science centre. and ZOMG I'm so not going bring him there, ever. So now I'm really looking forward to doing crazy stuff with old buddies. HAHAHAHAHA. Not forgetting the laughing sessions and eating loads of food with azri. ZOMG! I MISS YOU ALL terribly. The only fun I have now is volleyball trainings.

I just remember that I'm going for the school's tioman trip =D OKay, so that's something I should look forward to when the term starts. I must get a new pair of havannians~

Ahhh, Shrek 3 and Pirates of the Carribean is showing soon!!! YAY YAY YAY!

crappy shit.

Labels: movies, pioneerugby, relationship

I went kite flying on saturday =D And I lost interest after a short while. But its more like certain parts of the field was muddy and I was wearing slippers and and because the kite was torn. Nevermind... there was ivan running with the kite. hahahahhahaha. It was fun. like 8/10.

Labels: kite flying, love

DEAR LORD, PLEASE GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO CARRY ON.

Finally some regrets, but its all a lil' too late already. Its funny cause I never thought of life like this now. laughs*

Captain's ball and BBQ on June 1* Banapa's sexy seventeen 5th* 4 EH BEE CEE June 11* Shitty. Now I can't buy Banapa's present on the first with supposedly-bestfriend.

Dad bought N95 already. Maybe that's why I haven been seeing him around the living room lately. He must be busy fiddling with his new phone. And even at this hour in the morning. Geez.

and and and 3 MORE LOOOONNNGG DAYS TO HOLS =D Yes yes yes!


Rugby match, PJC Vs JJC tomorrow @ ccab. Okay, I hope JJC wins and ivan to be intact on thursday still.

Laughs* A mentality of a young teenager. You turn my life around and you picked me up when I was down. I am not emo-ing.

Labels: relationship, social life

Its getting better.
At least for now.

I finally finally pass something. GP!

Volleyballers and I were at yin lin's house baking cookies and brownies for seniors (farewell). Ahhahahah. It was so so so FUN! Even though it was tiring
, we manage to get a nice batch of cookies from the one I baked for ivan =D I hope my hard work pays of and the cookies still stay crunchy later. Its a two month thingy. Wel... I have achieved the two month thingy so I suppose I'll carry on. It ain't that horrible.

We lost to NYJC and SAJC and we are going to lose to AJC later. Experience luh. Anyways, we are in Top 8 already. That's good enough for me. Top 8 grouping ain't that good.



I listened during chem lecture yesterday and chem tutorials and econs tutorial and gp tutorial. Not bad... At least I did not sleep during math lecture~ So random. I'm going to sleep during everything later including dinner. Buai Tahan... I have nto done bio tutorials yet leh. DIENESS!

Labels: baking, relationship, school, volleyball

To carry on...

Stupid Stupid Stupid Cass. Needs LAUGHTER. LOADS OF LAUGHTER. Needs to play some SCRABBLE. Maybe knowing too much and saying too much is BAD BAD BAD. I shall stop k-poing and gossiping too much and maybe concentrate on other shit. I shall stop opening my mouth to wide and at least feel less depressive after telling stuff, especially to ivan. Since there is always this queer silence after I say too much that I shouldn't have said in the first place. And I don't care if you, ivan er read this. Its not that I'm AWFULLY DEPRESSED because of this. IF there was ak, sofia or saman, I think I will be running to you all and crying my eyes out because I have no idea what is making me oh so awfully DEPRESSED. At least they will be there. Its worst now when I can't bloody RUN properly without feeling any pain or having a few hours off such crappy emotions during volleyball trainings. Now I feel like SHIT. I bet you feel like shit and come on, stop thinking too much. Its not as if I'll cheat. I only cheat during tests when I really really need to. That's like desperate case already. Not typing anymore, in case ivan gets sensitive. Maybe not AWFULLY DEPRESSED.

Self denial? Probably. I think I'm going to run around and laugh crazily with ak. Tml? Hope you read this! I wouldn't mind a tub of Ben & Jerry's too.

Back to biology revision.

Maybe I messed up somewhere.

Labels: depression, relationship

oh man... I sure hate this.
And I sure hate this feeling.
So much for being happy.
The doctor says no arm activities, no touching of balls for 2 weeks. Well, its 6 weeks for a full recovery. I tore my muscles. I cried when he did crappy movements to my arms. AND I DO NOT HAVE A CAST! and I am not that clumsy.

Reminders of how life was and how great friends were. Hmmmm. School's horrible because of PW and GP. Shitty Shitty. I wish everyday is a Saturday - Volleyball, long lunches and slack evenings.

Movies to catch: Spidey 3 / Harry Potter
Books to read: Plenty

Thank GOD for all of them.
i'm blogging like this again....

Labels: injury, insecurities, movies, relationship