So i was in BeiJing. With a tour.
And i visited:

Eastern Qing Tombs.

BeiJing Hutong(old street).

Some icey cold place.

smth smth he park =X

Tian An Men Square.

The Forbidden Palace.

Jing Shan Park.

The Great Wall Of China.

The Summer Palace.

Yong He Gong.

Tang Ren Tong medical centre.

Dr.Tea

Jadeware place.

Capital Fresh Water Pearl Store.

Some fengshui blah blah master place.

Beijing Aozhilu Body-Building center.

There should be somemore.But whatever SMTL.
So life travelling there was FANTASTIC.
Duh~Cause i'm not living my oh so wonderful life there.
But i'm back! like that's a good thing.
lalala~Can't wait for you all to be back from camp =)

At the airport now.
Hahas.Just saw some China female transexual who CUT my queue.
It was just totally wierd to eactually hear her/his voice.
Imagine a "chio bu" with a MANLY voice.
Bwahahahas.
People pray bird flu does not get so serious in China when i'm there.
I'll be back on sunday.SHORT right.
A pity it is a tour.And my dad's colleuge's brother has got 2 sons.
dammy...I'm stuck with 4 boys.
I really wonder sometimes,if you're really really intersted in me.
or i'm just someone you need S*****lly.
I'm not a doll.Please do not make use of me or touch me like i'm your everything.
I've got feelings just like everyone else.
I've got an attitude and i'm unique.
this is a serious human trait we see in everyone.I want to be pampered.
Feel like i'm special and your everything.
Think about this when you're reading.
I'll love you.Whoever and whereever i am with or where i am.I want FRIED CARROT CAKE! I WANNA EAT IT NOW SO BADLY!
I WANT ROTI PLATA AND LAKSA AND all of Singapore's delicious food.
Muahahaha.
truth about me: I don't like the way poeple type lIiikE tHiiS.
So that's all about it.
I'm starting to discriminate the China people in my own mind.
damn...I'm going to suffer(probably not).
I'll be posting an entry about monday's bbq night when i'm back! pictures included!

Initially i wanted the tittle to be "HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE again"
But then...i decided not to.
Yippie!Watched Harry potter last night with ym. hahas.
So i saw dear cedric die again.
This time i decided to focus on cedric himself only.
lalala~ If i were to watch it another time.
I think i'll be able to repeat some of the many lines.
If there were to be a fifth. I doubt i'll be looking forward to it that much.
Because the fourth is already quite a letdown.
Let alone the fifth! What more there's no Oliver wood or cedric diggory.
training today was slaggy.Outdoor~
walking to school today was finally not so boring.
teehee.and I had breakfast too =) F.O.C
Bbq is in 2 days.
I'm off to BEIJING in 3 days. Bird flu country =(
Then in a week's time i'm off to THAILAND.BANGKOK. Another Bird Flu country
I still am VERY angry at my dad over my stupid hp bill.
I love CANDY CANES! Buy me some =)
I'm still caught in a triangle.
I have only got about 4 months to settle everything.
I need More time.
Ronnie's bedroom makes me feel sleepy.
And he's got a container full of coins.Which i think has got more than just 20 dollars in it.
Xin Nee's eyes scares the creep out of me.
Hahas.How ramdom this entry is.
Lastly.I'M GONNA FREEZE MY ASS OVER AT BEIJING MAN...
They better let me drink more wine there.
Cause i rather be DRUNK than hyperventilate.
Ii only took me 13 minutes to type all this crap out.

After a long wait of one and a half years!
I HAVE FINALLY WATCHED HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE!
Thanks to Michelle who booked the tickets i can watch it today!
So we as in Michelle.Cheryl.Olivia.Chia lynn.Karen.Natalie.Heidi and someone watched together.
They left out quite a number of important parts and details.
But i must say it did become darker.
I SAW CEDRIC!!!
hahas.
I kept stuffing pop corn into my mouth to stop myself form crying when cedric died and was brought back.
But i'm soooooo glad i'm gonna watch it two more times! yesh!
More of cedric and pop corn!
But all in all not including the flaws.It was wicked.
I was so close to just giving up.
you're not the only one who got hurt time and time again.
Me too okay!
So whatever.I'll just continuing closing one eye.
Until it opens BIG AND WIDE.I suggest you do something.

Ytd was a bliss.A total bliss in one way or another.
I counted 61 or 62 couples.
Wahahahs.There were more but i couldn't see!
Watched The Exorcism of Emily Rose.
Now i get what ak siad by she stoned quite a few times.
Some people ah! Know i'm a watching movie still call.
Saw my boyfriend!!!Sir Stamford Raffles.
No it is SIR THOMAS STAMFORD RAFFLES.
Shocked.Surprise.Totally didn't expect something which happened next.
But you know what! At least i'm not worried about whatever...
This is so ramdom.
But i'm so bloody tired.
But pretty much HAPPY.
He's sick.Aww~Take care!
It wasn't meant to be sarcastic in anyway okay.
lol.Birthday alert!!Birthday alert!!
1 December
Coming soon!!
Don't pretend that you didn't read the last part.
Cause i know that YOU DID!

Wells.I got the pictures from my phone or wherever it was growing cobwebs all over.
They are here to distract ME ME ME from those frigging thoughts =)
Hmmms...But not all pics are here!
People want privacy.HAHAHS

You knew i was this F*****g close till deciding.
You knew so frigging WELL.
CURIOUSITY KILLS THE CAT once again.
DAMN! You fustrate me.lol.
Scrabble was BORING as usual.
Not much talk.More on playing.
Well there goes my saturdays w/o volleyball trainings.
At least the final 1/3 is coming right up!
Then another character comes into play.
Nevermind.
In my life.I seek.Thrill.Adventure.Risk.Spicefulness.
I still can't believe i'm the opened one and she's the secretive one.
Oh hum.Till you come back!
I seriously appreciate the change.
In everyone of you.
Touches my heart.But i gotta be strong.
And not to let in to any of you devils.
I hate repeating what i used to blog.
But the only way to remember what's happening now is to continously remember it.
This entry is so crappy.
I finally got the pics from my phone to the com!
Woohoo! Xie Xie Ni Qing Ai De!
I LOVE EVERYONE! EVERYTHING! BIG OR SMALL! =D

There's a limit to how much one can soar.
If one goes over the quota.
You'll be sore in the end.
2/3 has been shown.answered.proven.
Oh WHATEVER.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPENCER!!!
Hugs.Kisses.T.L.C
Say I'm insane.But i miss it all.
Retest.Movie dates.Late Nights.Clam Chowder.
I suffered.sacrificed.cried.lied.
Geee~I'm both good and bad.
How.sacastic.
Spirits were liften when i realised you were fighting.
But it came across my mind not long later that.
You never had a good fighting spirit at all.
In fact you're a bad sportsman who didn't knew how to behave properly at times.
And you were so senseless.slugish.foolish.Whatever.to use that particular mean to blah blah blah.
I do hope you learnt your bloody lesson.
Of course i don't blame you for being such a stereotyped.
It wasn't that all shameless you know.
I still can't get a job.Argh.
Oh,just tell yourself i'll be ok.
Its getting intense deeper closer.
Things are getting worse and i need someone to take the blame.
There's still no answer you know.

All my bags are packed,I'm ready to go.
I'm standin' here outside your door.
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye.
But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn.
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn.
Already I'm so lonesome I could die.
So kiss me and smile for me.
Tell me that you'll wait for me.
Hold me like you'll never let me go.
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane.
Don't know when I'll be back again.
Oh, babe, I hate to go.
There's so many times I've let you down.
So many times I've played around.
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing.
Every place I go, I think of you.
Every song I sing, I sing for you.
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring.

How can i put in words.
Been well.Crying?
Don't ask.I'm just so scared.
So scared of making a mistake.
So much so that i'm going to keep myself busy busy busy this holidays.
I can't be sitting at home going to school for trainings.
And tuitions as well.
coming home listening to songs and think about my life now.
Its so desperate that i'm even using art to relate my life to.
I wish i was still in primary six.
Keeping my secrets to myself.
Its not worth risking my life.
My chest there or heart there hurts again.
Freak.I gotta stop thinking.

I'm still down.
Contradictions.boredom.Fear.
Books just seems to terrorise me in one way or another.
It just mkaes my imagination run wild.
Nevertheless songs.musics.rythm.
Things i wanna like "achieve" before O's would be.

NYAA(bronze

Get first in something in level or whatever.

Have some working experience at least.

Have a good chat with cheryl.

Relive my 0205 miserable days for just one day.

And the list may continue.But the first is a MUST.
I don't care how i'm going to cope.
But the certificate i must have.
Prove that i can do more than just playing sports and studying a bit.
I do not want to end up like whoever.
I do not want to be happy for just a while and suffer.
Late nights.Lets say.It has been two already.
I expect too much i suppose.
But that's just me.
HAHA.I've got high expectations.
I think you know that too.
*Bing Bung Bang Bish~
I really feel so odd/out in the family.
Grrr.I could even go out of the house at night when i wasn't allowed.
Too easy.Too easy.
I want some Spice in my life.
I want to take risk(like i know i'm doing it).Adventure.New things to learn about.
I seek fun!
hmmms.I miss OBS too.
I'll miss you.

Many a times i try my best to communicate with my dear parents.
Sometimes i get disapproving tones.
Leaving me in a hatred state.
Wanting for vengence to mend my already broken heart.
I don't get them and they don't get me now.
Communication breakdowns probably.
We come from a different background and generation.
Things and the way we think changes.
Its either they're still in their own generation mindset or they just don't want to care.
Whatmore all my little here and there relationships are breaking?
Breakdowns become a gradual part of life now.
This is when i know my faith is growing.
Because of my reliance on the LORD himself.
The Almighty.The Omega.
Messages they come in and are deleted.
Listening to sad songs.Reading books that spurs my emotions.
The genetic bonding i share with my dad.
At two different places doing almost exactly the same thing.
I MISS studying.learning.that cassandra.
I'm a Weirdo.
Face the fact.
If you don't like that.Shunt me away.
I don't care.
What would Jesus do if he was in my situation.
HALLELUJIAH!
Sammuel tt guy who asks too much questions got baptised last evening.
He's going to make an EXTREMELY good evangelist.
And we sang our baptism song as well.
Kiss me and smile for me.
Tell me that you'll wait for me.
Hold me like you'll never let me go.
There's so many times i let you down.
and played around.
I'm sorry for that.

Deepavalli ytd was great.
With all the YUMMY delicacies and so-called fun.
I did say it was worth the lack of sleep.
Went esplanade with tree after all the celebration.
Bought some stuff.
This is a desperate thing that i want.
I NEED A JOB TO EARN SOME EXTRA CASH!
Anyone dearly enough to help me find one with some flexibility.
Thanks to whoever who's gonna help me.
I'm smitten by both.
Gosh.LORD help me.
In desperate need of some help again.
Oh i want to get those nice indian bangles.
I'm going to Serangoon to try to get some cool deals when i have the cash.
At least he's cracking out of that shell now.
Or rather both.
I'm going to be a Singaporean and try walking the whole of the Memorial Walk someday.
And take many nice pictures along the way.
Looking at the training schedule SCARES the hell lot of me.
haha.At least i can take a breeze in China=)
I'll come back with China FLAGS for those i wanna give to.
Yu min's gonna die continuing reading my entries.Right?
Do you think i should change this skin.
No matter where i am.Who i'm with.
I'll love you till the end.
Whatever the circumstances.