I have attended quite a few funerals so far and none of which got me thinking about my parent's funeral except today's. I was at my godbrother's grandpapa funeral today at Mandai. I thought my father was jokingly asking me what will I say at his funeral while we were waiting for the rest to come. Hah. I was thinking, "the sarcastic father who never thinks about others feelings before opening his mouth".

Then when the coffin was being 'wheeled' into the furnace, I saw Austin crying. I didn't even dare cry when my grandmother was 'wheeled' in a couple of years back. And, Aunty Jenny wasn't crying and Aaron who is 3 or 4 years, pointed downstairs asking her "gong gong down there is it?".

During the funeral service, Aunty Jenny went up to give a speech-kind-of-thing of her father. She quoted what aaron said during the wake the day before. Because the grandpapa lost his voice this past september, he asked will gonggong be able to talk again? She told him, yes he will. He will have a healthier body, voice everything.

Back at home, my father asked me again what will I say at his funeral service. Hah. Maybe I'll sing a song, his favourite hymm or chorus. Maybe I'll take out a camera and start taking photos. I'll try not to breakdown like Aunty Jenny. Because I'm suppose to be happy. Finally, he's going to join the Lord and there will be no more worries, no more disappointments. There's this part of the hymm Blessed Assurance that goes "Perfect submission, all is at rest. I in my savior am happy and blest; ..... Filled with His goodness, lost in His love."

So, what will you say at your parent's funeral?